Float.

Been rather busy with PW , so much work to do.

Starting to plan for Xmas stuff too. Hope I can make a nice present though.

Feeling rather okay these days, no deep areas....for now.




One must admit that people are busy too. No time for deeper chats, just asking for the sake of asking sometimes. Cant really strike up a conversation with them too.




Finally finished Kafka on the Shore by Murakami. Quite touching and intriguing, but a little draggy at times.

Now the U.S is snowing already, should be quite cold. But I am more concerned about U.K weather since she is going soon....

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