The creator of despair and darkness

I silenced myself for the past week. Or at least being out of my control. Separation to protect whom? Myself, or them? Some must be getting used to my absence already. I can't withstand further bouts of "events". Because what will be left? Of the last days, I've given up. Yes I am selfish, to not hold thoughts for others. My mind is still mine though. In the end, I only have faith in the most distant. I didnt reply your previous letter. I am so sorry. I loved you, sab. But I guess this is the only way.

"Detachment doesn't mean you don't let the experience penetrate you. On the contrary, you let it penetrate you fully . That's how you are able to leave it." "If you hold back on the emotions-if you don't allow youself to go all the way through them-you can never get to being detached, you're too busy being afraid. You are afraid of the pain, you're afraid of the grief. You're afraid of the vulnerability that loving entails. But by throwing yourself into these emotions, by allowing yourself to dive in, all the way,over your head even, you experience them fully and completely. You know what pain is. You know what love is. You know what grief is. And only then you can say, ' All right, I have experienced that emotion. Now I need to detach from that emotion for a moment.' " -From Tuesdays with Morrie If one is unable to detach so easily, what comes next? That a soul gets ripped away along with the detachment, and that somehow o

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It really often eludes me as to why women are so easily confined and determined to be "the weaker sex". While men certainly have greater physical strength than women on the average, I think too much emphasis are placed on this point. "One is not born a woman, one becomes one". While some may view the process as a restricting doctrine, Im not quite sure why this actually suggests that men actually really never grow up or mature (if the reverse is true, that men are born men. How does that sound?) Is my situation because of the peculiar environment I live in? (where men are made men through some years in bootcamp?) (Are they made men, or do they just look like made men) Or is it due to my inability to comprehend the percieved differences between men and women, of not being able to understand there truly is a significant difference. Are women actually better able to solve wrongdoings because they can admit, seek & accept help (as compared to men, someh