Silenced

I silenced myself for the past week. Or at least being out of my control.

Separation to protect whom? Myself, or them?

Some must be getting used to my absence already.







I can't withstand further bouts of "events".
Because what will be left?






Of the last days, I've given up. Yes I am selfish, to not hold thoughts for others. My mind is still mine though.

In the end, I only have faith in the most distant.
I didnt reply your previous letter. I am so sorry.

I loved you, sab. But I guess this is the only way.

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