The creator of despair and darkness

Just borrowed this book from JRL. Should be quite interesting, but oh well it's in traditional chinese, so sg peeps like me may have some difficulty reading it. Shall read it slowly and carefully. Maybe I should try to buy it somewhere so I can read in my own free time (since libraries have deadlines...)Hope I can get some inspiration from this book for the upcoming performance in april. (P.S. Sorry if you can't see the image clearly since my blog's background is in black,too)

You are turning into a snake tomorrow. And as you start to devour people, With that mouth that has eaten others, You cry your love to me. And the same as today, I do wonder. Will I be able to say my love to you?

It's not like I have an identity to begin with. Just that I am losing myself so quickly,enough to drive me up the wall. I do not engage in actions anymore,merely feeling forced and separated from the rest of them. I tear my own mask everytime when I am alone. And force myself to mend it everyday. The cracks are already showing. How long can the mask last? Deep inside is a black hole. A gigantic one. Absorbing everything and anything. Soon the collapse upon its own core will happen.

是谁 悄悄敲我窗 豆大的雨滴 滑落触心房 本应多感凄 我只 呆呆待某床 轻轻的风震 飘落在脸庞 只觉非感伤 ---苏进凯

After coming back from China a few days ago, I feel vastly weird. Very very weird. I feel very very detached from everything. Like I will always have a third eye view in my mind telling me this is meaningless or something. Maybe it's just me reading too much on absurdism and existentialism. Been reading a book named "Tokyo-jima" or "tokyo island" by Natsuo Kirino. It's in japanese for the original. I am reading in chinese "东京岛" translated version. Rather interesting,something like the "Lord of the flies". Wondering why so little people are online these days. I feel rather.....alienated with people ignoring me. 2 more weeks to start of school. Let's hope next year will be a lot better than this year.

The date's way cooler than yesterday. Wonder why so many people are interested in 11/11. Leaving for china in 2 day's time,so I thought I better make a post here before I leave. Not much things happened,with the exception of the finishing of O Levels and such. It's already coming to the end of 2010, and like so many things came and went. 4B just kinda dissolved after the last day of school. Not expecting much from a fragmented class. I didn't achieve much this year. In fact, I think I've underachieved. Been distracted by too much random stuffs. Couldn't concentrate well in almost everything. Been down to the point where I almost couldn't promote and stuff. Really kinda demoralising when this spreads and so much people wants to ask you what happened. Pushed up to superstardom levels,except it's the other way round. Not really in the mood to leave for china for immersion. Many are so excited about it though. Maybe their excitement will rub off me. Someone...

Ended the exams on monday. Not really feeling that ecstatic or what,since I think I didnt really do the exams well. So well...... Yesterday had a outing-cum-celebration for hueychyi at junweng's house. It didn't really work out at first since we had problems starting the fire and stuff,so was feeling pretty hungry. However it turned out to be quite a nice outing since we had sucessfully organised our first class outing. The few people such as xiaodan,zimin,kelly,hueychyi and liheng stayed back to chat a while though haha. Today we had the personality test analysis during assembly. Not that interesting though,although I was kinda surprised at the people with the S and N respectively character had such different personalities. I am a ENTP/ENFP myself. And oh yes during cca session yesterday I was told by zhanglaoshi that su laoshi is leaving soon. Pretty much expected this coz he already "hinted" to us like so long ago. So it's really true that he leaves when the 07...