The creator of despair and darkness

"Detachment doesn't mean you don't let the experience penetrate you. On the contrary, you let it penetrate you fully . That's how you are able to leave it." "If you hold back on the emotions-if you don't allow youself to go all the way through them-you can never get to being detached, you're too busy being afraid. You are afraid of the pain, you're afraid of the grief. You're afraid of the vulnerability that loving entails. But by throwing yourself into these emotions, by allowing yourself to dive in, all the way,over your head even, you experience them fully and completely. You know what pain is. You know what love is. You know what grief is. And only then you can say, ' All right, I have experienced that emotion. Now I need to detach from that emotion for a moment.' " -From Tuesdays with Morrie If one is unable to detach so easily, what comes next? That a soul gets ripped away along with the detachment, and that somehow o...

123 吹 吹熄你說過的絕對 朋友愛 才是永遠不退 你的生日卡片遲了幾天都無所謂 要是難過就流一點眼淚 十五歲我　看見了愛情有多美 二十二誰送了我玫瑰 愛情躲著閃著追了趕了傷痕累累 像是傷兵早已無路可退 當愛在十七是完美 怎麼都不會累

It really often eludes me as to why women are so easily confined and determined to be "the weaker sex". While men certainly have greater physical strength than women on the average, I think too much emphasis are placed on this point. "One is not born a woman, one becomes one". While some may view the process as a restricting doctrine, Im not quite sure why this actually suggests that men actually really never grow up or mature (if the reverse is true, that men are born men. How does that sound?) Is my situation because of the peculiar environment I live in? (where men are made men through some years in bootcamp?) (Are they made men, or do they just look like made men) Or is it due to my inability to comprehend the percieved differences between men and women, of not being able to understand there truly is a significant difference. Are women actually better able to solve wrongdoings because they can admit, seek & accept help (as compared to men, someh...

So it's the end of 2011 today. Such a "historic" moment for my blog as this is the 100th post. It's been long. The U.S trip was...not as fun as I would expect but oh well, guess I'm not suited for travelling about. Christmas period was fun but the day itself was not. The year was okay. For someone who pretty much rebooted at the start of this year, I guess I cant ask for more. Goodluck to everyone and me in 2012.

Yesterday had fun at jw's house celebrating meiyu's birthday, with cheesecakes and mahjong (weird combi eh?) The rain has been on for a few long weeks now, pretty cooling, but cant really go out. When the holidays hit, I feel relaxed like everyone else. Maybe just too relaxed. Why did I say this post was almost milestone? I am just 1 more post away from reaching the 100th. Pretty interesting to see something so old to go on. No ideas lately to start writing, but I was pretty satisfied with my part of writing the script for xueyi. Hope xueyi can really go on as planned. Finished a new book titled "The darkroom of Damocles" by W.F Hermans. It's translated from Dutch. I'll like to share a poem here by Tomas Transtromer (Nobel Prize for Literature 2011) Prelude Waking up is a parachute jump from dreams. Free of the suffocating turbulence the traveller sinks towards the green zone of the morning. Things flare up. From the viewpoint of the quivering lark he is aware...

Been rather busy with PW , so much work to do. Starting to plan for Xmas stuff too. Hope I can make a nice present though. Feeling rather okay these days, no deep areas....for now. One must admit that people are busy too. No time for deeper chats, just asking for the sake of asking sometimes. Cant really strike up a conversation with them too. Finally finished Kafka on the Shore by Murakami. Quite touching and intriguing, but a little draggy at times. Now the U.S is snowing already, should be quite cold. But I am more concerned about U.K weather since she is going soon....